I used to run marathons to find and defeat my inner demons.
Twenty miles into the race I would hit a point where there was nothing in the world but myself.
My suffering body, and my inner demons.
Those voices would scream for me to stop.
Begging.Pleading.Demanding.Ordering.
Shutting down body parts to force me into compliance.
And I would ignore them.
That is why I ran marathons.
There was no other time in my life when I could truly prove my own mettle to myself.
I enjoyed the battle, and I savored the pain.
In CrossFit, there are WODs that take me there. I can get there more quickly, and I can go there more often.
This is what I am addicted to. Proving myself again and again
To myself.
As long as I know that I can defeat my inner demons, then know I can do anything.